New Year, New Beginnings, New Me?

2019 goals and resolutions

The grass isn't always greener on the other side; sometimes you just have to water the side you're already on...

For me, 2018 was a growth year.  It was full of feelings I hadn't been expecting, it was a little messy in parts, but it was also a year that I am so thankful for.  After a rocky few months, November and December was a period of transition for me; I cut out the toxicity that I had clinged to for years, closed the chapters that no longer needed writing, and had the breakthrough I never knew I needed.  I started to believe in myself. 

I love this blog, and what started as a creative outlet from the 9 to 5 life has slowly turned in to possibly my biggest passion.  I've always loved writing, and having the opportunity to start turning this in to my career is feeling like a dream come true.  I still have a long way to go, but having the confidence in myself and my abilities, to go part time at my office job and pursue this, is huge for me.  A year ago, I would tell anyone who said I could do this that they had lost their mind. I had no faith in my own creativity and spent my whole time criticising my content.  But something clicked late in 2018, and I realised I could do this. Having something that you can turn in to a career but that you also enjoy immensely, can be very overwhelming but I am grateful for where 2018 has led me and for teaching me to believe in, not just myself but also, my little corner of the internet.

Aside from Oh Six Eleven, 2018 has also taught me so much about myself.  I have learnt to find joy in the simplest of things; gossiping with friends over a bottle or two of Sauvignon Blanc in the local Italian restaurant, a big ol' mug of tea and a new pair of chenille socks for a cosy evening in, singing along to my favourite song on the radio.  I have learnt to live in the moment and not base my happiness on a day in the future that is yet to happen. I have learnt to be content with the baby steps I am taking in my life, that there is no rush; good things take time, sometimes days, weeks, months, even years.  2018 taught me about self worth, love, true friendship, made me see just how much I love my circle of friends and the closeness of my family.

At the start of '18,  I was going to publish a post talking about how I'd recently turned 25 and that I knew exactly how to get through my quarter life crisis.  But then I realised I had no idea.  I started to feel all these different emotions and fears, feeling inadequate, like I was falling behind to my peers.  I felt like everyone else had their shit together, and then there was me stuck in an almighty rut.

If there's one thing the last year has made me realise, it's that I did not need to have my shit together.  I still don't.  To me, there is no such thing.  As life goes on and your journey continues, there is always going to be obstacles, ups and downs, trials and tribulations. "Shit Together" isn't a destination I'm heading for any time soon, rather I'm just learning how to really enjoy the journey...

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So what do I want from the rest of my 20s, in 2019 and beyond? 
I want to see more of the world; different continents, different cultures.
I want to buy a house, or maybe a flat, depending on how my career goes and what I can afford.  At the rate I'm going, having just booked flights to Toronto and New York, I'm looking at a Wendy house with no electricity.
I want to take this blog further than my circa March '17 heart ever thought it could go when I hit that sign up button.
I want to continue to grow as a person and make sure I am always true to myself.  One thing I struggled with earlier in my 20s was feeling like I had to fit a mould, I didn't admit the things I love because I thought I was meant to love something else.  I tried to be what people wanted me to be, until I realised that I should just be myself.  And I like me, I think I'm pretty cool (only sort of kidding), and I think I am a good person.  I am a good friend, a good daughter, a good sister.
I want to love myself again.  I used to breeze through life with a confidence like no other; people used to even ask me how I was so confident.  Over the last year or so, I've lost that confidence.  It was nobody's fault, it was just something I had to go through.  I'm going to learn to love myself again.

But most of all, I want to be happy. I want to continue doing the things I love; losing myself in a moment of live music or a good book, hopping on a plane and exploring somewhere new with my best friends, saying "yes" to crazy ideas and new opportunities, spending time with my amazing family who are always there to be my cheerleaders, and working my socks off to turn this blog in to something I can be proud of. I want to always believe in myself, because I wish I had all along.

So, to answer the question in the post title.... this isn't a new me, just a better version of me, the me I've hoped to be for a long time.

If you have something you love and that you want to pursue, I'll set you this one challenge - start believing in yourself - it's the best thing I've done this last year.

Cheers to the new year, and cheers to us.  I have a feeling it's going to be a good one...

Thanks for stopping by,

14 comments

  1. Happy new year you babe! You got this!

    x Lisa | lisaautumn.com

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  2. 2019 is so your year!
    What a great post, and actually quite motivating. I hate the saying "new year, new me" yours is much better, "a better version of me"

    Lovely post!

    Aimsy xoxo

    https://www.aimsysantics.co.uk

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  3. You're absolutely right, there's no need to be rushed into getting our shit together! I hope you have an amazing 2019! xx

    Lucy | www.lucymary.co.uk

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  4. I hope you'll achieve everything you want to be the end of the year! You can do it! Good luck xx

    Anaïs | http://anais-n.com

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  5. Having a firmer belief in myself is one of my 2019 goals! I'd also like to travel more this year too! I hope you smash your 2019 goals and love the better version of yourself xxx

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  6. My quarter life crisis involved a LOT of tequila. Believe in yourself - that self-love is still in there!

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  7. I loved reading this post so much :) I was smiling all the way through :) I always worry so much about getting my shit together as well haha! Best of luck this year lovely.
    Laura / https://www.laustworld.com/

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  8. Naomi I am just like you, I am in the process of getting my confidence back and loving myself more than ever before. You know the trials and tribulations we go through it's not a mistake that journey is to make us a better person. 2018 was a rough year for me and I too was comparing myself to my peers who all have houses and jobs and I don't have a job and still live with my mom. But just like you I came to the conclusion that I don't have to rush through life I'll get there when I get there in the meantime it's fun to just live in the moment and count my blessings. Your post warmed my heart and reminded me that I'm not alone with those feelings. I wish you all the best friend your 2019 journey💋🙌🏾❤️

    Natonya | https://www.justnatonya.wordpress.com

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  9. Your post is really inspiring lovely. I love the main fact is you want to be happy. I hope you have an awesome 2019 flower

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  10. I also don't understand when people say get your shit together. Like what does that even mean? Getting a job, not doing anything fun, starting a family? Or what? Life is all about ups and downs and those little moments of fun and adventure in between.

    Good luck in 2019 and hope you will achieve your goals!

    Janja | https://seekingwonderful.wordpress.com/

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  11. Happy new year! I completely agree with focusing on what makes you happy and doing what makes you happy it's so important. Hope this year goes amazing for you!

    Sara | http://www.copperandsun.co.uk

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  12. I highly suggest traveling as much as you can in your 20's! I got married early and while I still go to live my dream life and work my dream job I wish I hadn't gotten married so young and had even more freedom. But being able to meet people from different cultures really made a difference in my life that I'll always be thankful for!

    ~ Hazel // http://placesandpeonies.wordpress.com

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  13. Some inspiring new year ideas, go girl. Wishing you a happy and prosperous 2019!

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  14. Hiya Naomi,
    It makes me so happy to hear you reaching for your goals! I'm rooting for you and I am sending you so much love and support!

    All my love,
    Casey x
    www.casestreetx.com

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